NIP

A nosy woman tried to discipline Belle for breastfeeding, and me for allowing Belle to breastfeed on demand in public.  That sums it up!

Manifestation

I can clearly see untapped parts of myself being reflected back at me through another.

Sunday chicken

Belle and I shared Sunday's citrus lavender chicken with the usual dinner guest.  Belle divided the mashed sweet potatoes between our plates and stole bites of chicken and oranges.  She found her off switch fairly quickly after dinner, which allowed for liberal adult conversation.  What a lovely time!

Sexuality

A three card reading I gave myself for this week's forecast concluded with "Sexuality (Doreen Virtue's Healing With The Fairies)."  I wasn't surprised.  Sunday evening's spontaneous dinner date had ended with something unexpected.  Dinners later in the week ended with...dessert, and a healthy, heaping serving at that.  I'd been setting an extra place at the table intermittently since Autumn.  A change was inevitable!

Release

I learned more from a tape of my maternal grandmother's account of her earliest years in Texas than I learned from her in life.  I almost cannot believe it's the same woman on a tape.  She seemed so loving and honest in 1991 or 1992, when I made the tape.  The woman on the tape would soon unravel, with love and honesty replaced with hatred and lies.  What happened?  What changed?

My grandmother started warning me we'd been cursed not long after I made this tape.  She revealed how she'd been attacked by her mother-in-law with magic that cost my grandmother her health, her money and her daughter.  My grandmother remained convinced until the day she died that we would only advance so far, only to see our efforts cut short because of this curse.

 Releasing this has not been an easy process.  I isolated myself in the exact ways my grandmother encouraged. I held myself back from many things for my own self-preservation.  I recently found an old letter addressed to my grandmother from one of her nine sisters.  The letter alluded to my grandmother falling prey to a psychic scam.  My grandmother fell victim to many such scams, which was the true curse.
 

Belle made breakfast.

I am committed to actively working with my maternal lineage (mother, grandmother, great-grandmother on down) in 2014.  Imagine my delight this morning when Belle pushed her table up to the stove and started cooking breakfast.

Why is this important?

My great-grandmother had to cook standing on a stool because she was too small to reach it otherwise.  She had been stuck doing the cooking and other chores from childhood, likely based on skin color differences within her family.  She cooked standing on a stool because she had to.  This morning Belle chose to cook standing on her table because she wanted to.

Belle pan fried ham and seasoned the fried eggs.  She even transferred the fried ham to a plate.  I made white rice and supervised Belle's cooking.  She did a fine job controlling the burner and using the spatula and fork.  She is learning quickly how to do things.  All the mothers and grandmothers are with us too.

Happy Healthy New Year!

Today we heard the best news on Belle's health:  Belle is in the twenty-fifth percentile for other twenty-four month old children.  Because her growth is steadily climbing upward, her doctor is confident Belle can go longer between visits.  Belle's next appointment is scheduled for July, six months from now.  Belle is on course with most active, healthy children.  Maybe now I can relax now that Belle's growth isn't being as heavily monitored.  That certainly took some fun out of these past two years.