Dinner guest and I are through. We had a marvelous Valentine's Day and a glorious morning after. While we kept in touch in the week that followed, I noticed we didn't see each other. This was a jerky move after all the fuss that went into our romantic Valentine's evening. Last night I finally got my confirmation that we are done. He says he can't reciprocate my feelings. He says his biker friends wouldn't understand (Why? I am older than he is? Black? A mom? Would they accept me wearing lululemon and riding a bicycle with a yoga mat tucked under my arm? Would he?). He says we wouldn't last.
I fell hard for a man with Asperger's. I accepted my friend with Asperger's. I stopped seeing his quirks after a while and accepted him completely. Then we became lovers. I don't want to just be friends again. I don't want things to go back as they were before. I don't want him to be sorry. I want to keep growing as we were. I liked our dynamic. I liked loving him. Now all I have from him are a few rolls of toilet paper from a jumbo pack he brought back from a Costco trip. I will think of him fondly when I wipe my ass.
Can I get a Costco membership?
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